Sigh

Well it's looking progressively like door number one. Guess what I want doesn't matter.

Damned if you do, damned if you don't...

There's not much worse when you're faced with two options, and both have bad outcomes.

The first outcome you hurt yourself, by doing what you don't want to do.



The second, you do what you want but hurt the other person.



I need door number three.

Hot Stuff!

I was surprised a few weeks back with tickets to see Duran Duran. It was a good surprise. I've been a fan for a long time. John Taylor is STILL on my laminated list. They looked really happy. I was glad to see it. Whoever the sound guy and the camera man were didn't know the music. So some of the sound was off and the camera work didn't match the songs. An example, the camera man would find the guitar solo a few bars after it began. Silly. Here's a video. lol.


Let's see...what else has happened...OH. The fucktards are on the run! heh.


I'm going back to school! WOOT! I'm scared to death. I'm a lousey student. But, it turns out I'm three classes from an AA. I THINK I am about 1-2 semesters from a B.A. Crazy huh? So, we'll see.

Now for some bad news... *WAILING* I have to go camping!!!! I am such an indoor girl. I hate camping. HATE IT! HATE IT! HATE IT! Oh well. I printed out my camping checklist. Yes I have a checklist. I hate to be with out my stuff. It's like 5 pages. I think it has like 200 items. Yeah I know it's a lot. But a majority are small. Stuff like Q-Tips and tooth paste. In any case...yeah. Hopefully I won't kill anyone in a fit of hysteria.


Oh yeah, Went came out...IN SHORTS!!!

This makes me happy. *sigh*

Mmmmmmm...Thanks Kris

What Your Taste in Chocolate Says About You

You are sweet, mellow, and easily satisfied. You don't like anything too intense and dramatic. Deep down, you're a kid at heart... and you're nostalgic for the past. You are emotionally expressive and sensitive. You're effected by everything around you. Your friends appreciate your open heart, but they are afraid of hurting your feelings. You love the feeling of accomplishment. You enjoy doing what's important. You feel lost when you have to do frivolous tasks or hang out with shallow people.

The Chocolate Oracle

A Day in the Life...

Today was a tiring day. I had a rough night, full of nightmares. What were they? Not telling you. I don't need people emailing me telling me what they mean. I know what they mean. Loss and rejection. Take that. So when my emotions couldn't take it anymore, I did what I always do. I go cry in the shower. Now, when I say I cried in the shower let me help you understand. I CRIED! Like wailing. Like someone had died. I was in full grief mode. You know that kid who cries so uncontrollably they start to dry heave? That was me. I was crying so hard, I was dry heaving. I cried until the water got cold then I got out and cried. I finally calmed myself down.


Later I worked on a project with a friend for three hours. Very productive. I feel good about it.





This week the landscapers did their little landscaping thing, which included laying down tanbark. Why is this important? Remember this? (scroll down to pic of cat) Yes, the cat has started bringing us sticks again. Now she has yards and yard of tanbark to bring to us. We got eight sticks tonight. She was sooooo proud of herself. Funny girl. Like this...but not white and no water...






So, now, I am really tired. My head hurts, I really want to go to sleep, and I well, obviously will. But I hope to do it soon.

School Daze

Well looks like, maybe, I am going back to school. Turns out I am 3 classes away from an AA. Looking at those classes, I know why I never took them! LOL. Is it wrong I don't care about women's studies or the sociology of minorities? Pfffffffffft. So, we'll see. I'm taking a placement test next week. Maybe they offer the classes I want over the summer. Last summer they offered two of them and one was online which would be PERFECT!

Wish me luck.

"Time is a currency that sometimes must be borrowed against to increase its wealth."
Cole Goodwin

HAHAHAHAHAAHA!! Someone wrote me poems!!!

Ode to Nic & Went!

There was a young girl from Gilroy,

Who had a big crush on a boy.

His name is Wentworth Miller,

And she really wants him to drill her;

Oh if only there was a Wentworth sex toy!

and if that weren't enough...

Nicbeast Obsession!


She's so crazy for Wentworth Miller,
She's stalked him here and there.
She'd willingly let him do anything to her,
With extreme eagerness and flair.

Went Miller is Nicbeast's obsession,
He is on her laminated list.
Nic wants him with a passion,
Prison Break she cannot resist.

Wentworth is Nic's obsessive fantasy,
An episode she will not miss.
Nic dotes on Wentworth all can see,
Wanting Went for a passionate kiss.

Nicbeast and the girls of Wet for Went,
They seek Went's body to enslave.
Their perfect vision of a Hollywood Gent,
Nic will take her obsession to her grave.

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU JAMIE!!!!!!!!!!!