Kittens

At their cutest...sleeping!

Brand New Day

I know I've been absent mostly from my blog, but I've had to be. I'm happy to say, in a few weeks if all goes well, that will change. Things seem to finally be drifting in my favor for a change *knocks on wood*.

With that in mind, I think maybe I'll make some resolutions. Well not resolutions, but take some ideas I have and implement them. Make my life more of what I want it to be, or at least, do more of the things I want to do. I'm afraid this may upset some, but if they can't understand that it's time for me to take care my business, then I'll be sad but I'll move on.




What else is new? River of Death.



Yep it's that time again. We are leaving Sunday. We will be camping for the Whole. Damn. Week. Well, we'll break it up here and there with a motel or B&B. I mean how many times do I have to say it...IN-FREAKING-DOOR GIRL! Honestly, I don't even need that much. Shower, bathroom, power, Internet access...I can even do with out the latter if I have my iPhone to keep an eye on stuff.

The new Harry Potter comes out while we are up there. I made it known under no uncertain terms I WILL BE GOING TO SEE THAT. No questions, no discussions. I am NOT playin'.


In other news, I got my AA ...



and people made me walk. So embarrassing. I also discovered I'm 2 semesters away from my BA. So I think that will be coming up on the game plan. Maybe while up at the R.O.D. I can figure out what's what.

For now, I think that's it.

Oh, did I tell you I had a fabulous dream that I was making out with Wentworth? Yum.

LOST

One of my kittens, Eight, is missing...I'm out of town, and can't do anything about it which makes me feel so useless. Please send positive vibes she comes home soon, safe and sound. My heart is breaking for her. Thanks.


http://sfbay.craigslist.org/sby/laf/1133326082.html

The Unmitigated Gall

Well, those of you who know me, know I've had some other issues with my health. My stoopit Gallbladder is defective and has to be taken out. I am not happy about this. I might be more afraid as I usually am before a surgery but I'm just too annoyed. I like what the Gallbladder is SUPPOSED to do. I'd like to keep it, but these trips to the ER are a right pain in the, well Gallbladder. When the ER staff knows you, you've been in too many times.

I was worried after dinner out on Friday that I may cause myself another attack, but I just ended up being queasy until late Saturday night. I can live with that.

Tuesday I go under the knife again. I'm doing it here in town this time. No offense to Stanford, which is a WONDERFUL hospital, but it's such a long haul. So if you'd like to come visit me in the hospital I'd LOVE that!!
I am sorry to say, neither Wentworth (who never shows) or Chris Cornell (will be somewhere between TX and GA) will be coming over to help me convalesce but I do have a couple of friends who are gonna step in and help out. I'm quite happy about that.

Well I guess that's it. I'll see ya later. Wish me luck!

How to be a Fangirl

It's no secret I love me some Chris Cornell. Take 'im anyway I can get him. I will listen to that man sing the phone book. Don't care, no way no how. So imagine my surprise when I find out he's on Twitter and actually "Tweeting"! Yup. I clicked that shit and follow him around like the psychotic fan girl I am.

So, one day I am Twitter Stalking him. He's answering questions, throwing out randoms stuff like that and I tell him, he should use his Black Berry to send pictures to Twitter. He responded.

HE FUCKING RESPONDED!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

So then he asks for help, and people start sending him instructions on how to upload a photo! After some trial and error we get one!! YAY!!! And Awwwwwwwwwwww!!!

Then on his way to the show in Chile. He was at the airport where he got stuck for 12 hours. I'd have killed fools. (And before you even ask, yes I was on the computer trying to find out where exactly IN the airport he was and which flight had been delayed. Hello, my name is Nicbeast and I have a problem.) So I send him another Tweet, to which I get no response. No surprise, lightening never strikes twice. But NOW we get these!!!

Backstage in Chile

Out on stage, Chile

Out on stage, Chile

Crowd in Chile

Billie Jean-Chile

Like a Stone-Chile

Defying the Curfew!-Chile

I am OFFICIALLY the coolest person I know right now. SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

This would be me!!!

You can see the rest of the pics here.

*stoopid fangirl sigh*


Oh, and my new favorite from his new CD Scream.

Part Of Me Lyrics

Little girl, I love when she talks to me
Got to smile, when she walks that walk with me
I want the girl, but I want a lot
Might cross my mind, but that's where it stops

Ohhhh
That bitch ain't a part of me
No, that bitch ain't a part of me
I said no, that bitch ain't a part of me
No, that bitch ain't a part of me
I said no, that bitch ain't a part of me
No, that bitch ain't a part of me
I said no, that bitch ain't a part of me
No, that bitch ain't a part of-part of-part of me

I love the girl, I'm lovin' the dress she wears
She's got a hold, got a hold of me neck, oh yeah
I wanna cry, the way that she moves
I want the girl, but not what she's going through

Ohhhhh
That bitch ain't a part of me
No, that bitch ain't a part of me
I said no, that bitch ain't a part of me
No, that bitch ain't a part of me
I said no, that bitch ain't a part of me
No, that bitch ain't a part of me
I said no, that bitch ain't a part of me
No, that bitch ain't a part of-part of-part of me

She was so friendly, I had one too many
But now that they tell she was rubbing up against me
But I swear, never meant a thing, she was just a fling
There's no other woman who does it like you

That bitch ain't a part of me
No, that bitch ain't a part of me
I said no, that bitch ain't a part of me
No, that bitch ain't a part of me
I said no, that bitch ain't a part of me
No, that bitch ain't a part of-part of-part of me

It's that time of year again.

I hate this time of year. You know, birthday time. It scares me. I've said before, my birthdays tend to be bad. I remember when they used to be fun and good and then around, oh I don't know '95 they started to go down hill. The first bad one being everyone forgot. I was Molly Ringwald. It was awful. Only I didn't get the cute guy at the end. Since then I can probably count the number of good birthday's I've had on one hand. You know the ones that leave you feeling happy for a couple days. Now I just hope for not bad and I'm ahead of the game.

Well, I was getting excited about this year. Family coming out, all taking a road trip to have a party and bam. That's what I get for getting my hopes up. I guess there is still time for things to get better, but it's like, now it's already tainted. I know I'm quick to emotion and probaby it's not that bad but I do feel bad. Very bad. So what to do...

I guess use the power of positive thinking. Believe it will be ok, keep saying it will be ok and it will. I can give it a try, but at this point I don't have much faith in it. I surely would do what ever it took to make things better, but I don't know what that is and no one is offering the answer. It's one of those times where you can't seem to do anything right.

So, I'll try to keep from slipping into that dark room again, but I feel its pull. Maybe it's a push. All the things going on in my life that I juggle start to get heavy and weigh me down. People look at me or talk with me and say things like, "Geeze you're going through so much." What choice do I have. I tell people, "If I stop to think about it, I'd curl up fetal and drool." These past couple of days I feel like doing just that.

AAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!

WHY AM I HAVING SURGERY ON THE DAY OF THE INAUGURATION????